a year and a cup of ice cream

a year and a cup of ice cream...hmmm, sounds like a good title for a book. i always wanted to write a book before but since i start working,dh takda masa la for all that ( not a p3 statement :) ) well...i will write a book eventually bcause i think i have a lot of interesting story to tell the world, the good and the sad stories. hehe, just wait for the book

sorry nenek.. i love my atok more

it's 2: 42 now..but im still awake. not sure why i cant sleep,maybe im just 2 hungry but im to tired to go down and make my self something to eat. so, what else to do but to start a blog. hahaha..yups, after reading my boss blog, it got me a little inspired to start my own blog. i always wanted to do a blog, in fact i use to have a blog before..but hmmm..dh tua2 ni malas nk update :)

well...what about today? everything is not rite since morning. i have to take a half day leave bcause my grandma was admitted to the hospital, she was there for almost 1 week but only today i had the chance to go and visit her, not to say im a bad grand daughter, is just that..me and my grandmother is not that close. when i was a little girl especially masa raya, my grandma selalu memilih between her grandchild. i still remember during one raya, when everyone when back from the prayers, all the grandkid will line up to mintak duit raya. i still remember untill today, i look at my cousin , they all would get like rm 5 each from my granma and when it comes to me and my siblings turn to mintak the duit raya,well u know what she gave us..well, she gave us one hand full of duit syilling that god know how much is the amount to my sister and ask us to divide it by 3..and we end up getting like rm 1.30 each.well, did i mension that my other cousin got like rm 5 each?so..why did we get that much amount when the other grandkid got more?? well, im still not sure of the answer my self.
i dont blame her for choosing her fave grandkid cuz it's her choise to do so, but im just wondering now, where are all her fav grandkid when she's ill?? i dont see them coming to visit her in the hospital. i dont think they even care, but one thing for sure, she started to treat me and my siblings a little better...but i think it's kindda 2 late. well, i am sad when i found out that her cancer level has reach the last stage, but the sorry i felt is more like feeling sorry for another human being..not more than that.sorry nenek, i love my atok more